I've been living by myself (actually with my roommates) for couple of weeks. It's been nice, I haven't been homesick, but I've also been every week-end at my parents' house. And my dad got little offended when I said that I'll come to a visit. "You don't visit your home, do you?" he said. And he calls me at least every other day. I guess it's the firstborn-thing. Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining, it's just funny

And when my school started (environmental technology, landscape designing) and our drawing classes began, I realized what are the things that bother me most in my works. I try to improve these sooner or later:

- contrasts. All my works look very pale, I guess I've been too shy. Maybe it would be a good idea to work mostly black and white for a while and consentrate more on that.
- 3D and perspective. I want to do deeper pictures and learn how to use f.ex. 3-point perspective.
- rendering. Sometimes when I have a "good" idea, it doesn't turn out very well...

So I must draw, draw and draw ^^ . Maybe I'll remember these point now when they're public. If you have some suggestions/anything on your mind, I'd be more than glad to hear them.
I hope you've been well!

Art can be categorized in many ways. I used to divide pictures into three categories: pictures that have a clear meaning, those that might have something to say (probably something different to different persons), and those that are “just pretty”. Are their values different?

For a long time I thought that only the meaningful pictures are worth of doing, therefore I didn’t allow myself to do what I wanted to do. I censored my imagination heavily. For example painting a beautiful field was forbidden. As a result I didn’t do actually anything (I didn’t sketch randomly at all, which didn’t make things easier). If I happened to get an idea, my drawing and painting skills were so weak, that I couldn’t do a picture that I could be happy with. And then my interest to art nearly disappeared.

And a meaning, that's invented by force, isn't often very good.

I think that hobbies are for enjoyment and relaxation. It wasn’t clever to make myself do something that I didn’t want to do, and it was even more silly to forbid all the nice things from myself. When I didn’t enjoy as much of drawing/painting as I used to, I didn’t get ideas and I wasn’t happy with myself, and then I enjoyed even less of art – it was a real rat race.

Now I’ve decided to do anything I ever want to, I’ll try to forget that censoring completely. It took a long time to realize one thing: art has always been done for many reasons, and they all have their own and different, but equally important, purpose.


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And then back to this world : After a couple of weeks I start my studies at an university of applied sciences. I'm going to study environmental technology, actually environmental planning. It's going to be an excitinhg year, as I'm moving from my parents' house etc.

I quess that I returned now from my hiatus, which lasted almost for a year... But I really needed it, now I'm done with the matricultaion exams etc. At that time I just didn't want to show my work to anyone (as I didn't like of them at all), but at the same time I felt that I was lazy when I wasn't submitting.

But that's enough reasons! Now I'm going to show you some of the work that I've done during this time, little by little. And for the people that I'm watching: I'm pretty sure that I wont be as active as I used to be, but I'll try to come by and comment once in a while. And I won't probably be able to thank you individually for favs etc. So: thank you!

if you happen to like of some work of mine, the biggest compliment you can give is couple words of advice or hints. Helpful critiques are the thing why I'm here.

And another thing that I'll try to be humble with "art" and at the same time I'll try to be happy with what I've created. I draw and paint because I like to do it, not because I "have to". If I don't feel like drawing/painting, then I won't do it. It's simple and relaxing.


Now, there was my blabbering. Actually I wanted to say: nice to see you again!

I'm sad to say it, but in the same time I'm relieved to do this decision.

I don't want my hobbies to become "have to do" -things to me. Deviantart is a wonderful place, it has really helped me to get information and inspiration. But I've also noticed that I don't dare anymore to take risks and make adventures to the world of art. Because of that I've been sticking to the same style of doing art, and I've not improved as much in these years than I would've wanted.
Now I want to just let go and get mixed up with doing "art". Somehow I feel that all pictures should be nearly perfect when I post them here, but in the same time they have become actually worse (I'm not personally at all happy with them).

Shortly put, I want to enjoy again of doing art.

Sorry to all the people that I'm watching, I wont be commenting on anything for a while. I will be back (but I don't have any idea when)!
And I'm sorry ~Alderfly, you tagged me already a while ago but I haven't done it... I'll probably do it when I return.

Good luck to all of you